Day 4: Rock the Dish

I started earlier than usual today.  That was helpful to me.  I will keep trying that I think- if I can or continue to desire it.  :)

I had a lot of productive thinking and dreaming today.

My blisters are healing.

I listened to Nahko, Rising Appalachia, and Dessert Dwellers.

I mostly walked today.   I noticed if my arms started moving to dance to the music I could just convert that energy to running and put my dancing into running and it felt really good.  Then when I stopped feeling it- I just started walking again.

No judgement of myself.   Just proud of myself for getting myself there and doing this project.  My body is already significantly different- to my eyes and feeling.

One great benefit.  I got a text from someone today that normally would have really taken me down.  It did sting a little.  He was just being honest about his experience with me.  But I feel a real calm inside me from the hard work these past 4 days.  Not just Rocking the Dish but also with my swimming lesson bath time book and in my personal life.

I value the feedback because it helps me understand the effect I'm having on other people.  Nahko tells me to stay humble every single day.  Right now I feel humble.  I have so much to learn about myself and relationships and just life.  But I also AM learning so much and I feel confident I can keep learning and growing.




There was a beautiful moment today when a hawk flew very close to me and circled me and I just stretched out my arms and opened my spirit up to him.  Like a similar moment I had in a desert once I had to wonder if maybe he thought I was lunch- but it was like he was saying hello to me.  Or I love you.  Or something.  :)  Or I want to eat you.  Who knows.

But the way I felt when he was much closer to me than in this picture is beyond description.  I wanted to be him so much.  I wanted to feel that freedom of flying.

I actually did feel that freedom in that moment though.

It just felt like a great honor was bestowed upon me.





Another thing I notice is that I like who I am when I am rocking the dish.  Because I feel a real satisfaction from having challenged myself so much and from the benefits of doing it.

So constructive feedback feels much better than it does when you are in a place of weakness and self doubt.  Even if it stings a bit- I have the mental power to set that aside and just look at it practically and see what I can do with it to propel me forward in new and better ways.

GAME 6 TONIGHT.   Go Warriors!!