Day 3: Rock the Dish

Today, my only goal is to finish it in good spirits.

I'm being challenged right now to not let my emotions get the best of me.

I need to put them in their place and keep moving towards the things that I'm trying to accomplish.

I have doubts and fears inside me that are trying to give me counsel and I just don't know whether to ignore them and not let any fear enter me- can I do that?- or .... ?  I don't know?  What do you with existential angst that hits you like a tsunami at times?

Were the Beatles right?  Is love really all we need?  This is what I'm thinking about today.

I'll finish this report when I get back.

Very late this night

Well, I finished in good spirits.  The running shoes helped my blisters by giving me different pressure points than my barefoot shoes that I can't wear socks with.

I walked mostly.  Danced with my arms sometimes because the music was good and sometimes just to get myself going.  Speed walked at times.  Jogged and also ran when I felt the Spirit so move me.

I decided that for me- the dish will be a judgement free zone.  Of myself, anyway.  Ha ha.

I can do whatever the heck I want.  My only job is to get myself there every day until the end of July.  The rest- I just do whatever I want to Rock it.  I can go slow, fast, change it up- whatever I want.  This makes it a virtually stress free activity for me and that means I'm much more likely to do it.

This is my favorite spot.  It doesn't look like much from this pic.  But it's at the top of a hill where the valley suddenly shows itself and it's amazing.  Some day I'll be able to capture it better.  It's towards the end of the loop and the beginning of the descent down back to the trail head.

 I met some friends and this is their pet they take to walk the dish.  Fantastic!  I hope to see them on the trail sometime.

I am learning that if I don't desire something that will really help me, then figure out a way to desire it.

If I want to accomplish a task that I am avoiding- figure out the worst things about it and then see if there is anything to be done about those things.  Then smoke cannabis and go do it.

That is one of the best uses for medical marijuana for my particular ADD/issues that often really hold me back.

Music

Music is such a gift.  Some of my best moments of today's Rocking was listening to Nahko Bear and maybe some accompanying fist pumping and running.  I want Nahko to come with me every day to the Rock the Dish.

Looking forward

I want to do this project until the end of July.  Why?  Because I have a girlfriend who is dating someone and they agreed to go to the end of July and that just sounded good to me.  :)  Kind of strange to have an expiration date on a relationship and keep going with it- but perfect for a project like this.  I guess- not so weird, when I think about it.  Planning an experience and giving it freedom within a context of time to see what happens.

Interesting for dating.  I'm curious to see how it works out for them.